I've been getting to know me, not just the outside blah blah that everyone sees but the real me within.. I always thought I did pretty well at connecting with me but oh how wrong I was. I was actually so far away from my truth, of my authentic vulnerable me that I had tricked myself into thinking I was someone else never wanting to face what it was within that I merely viewed as leftovers.
I'd come to point in life where I was just working through the motions daily, sitting on the sidelines, wearing my mask, playing the necessary roles required as to not shake things up and get noticed. It got too much, I was suffocating so began my process of rediscovering me.
I began to peel back the layers to why I was existing in life as I was. I sat in sacred time with sista's as we shared our most vulnerable selves baring feelings, thoughts and words from deep within. It opened my eyes to a world of perfection that I wasn't the only one living.
The discovery is far from over and each day I learn more about who I am and what I enjoy and WANT to do for myself but the emotions and feeling that come forth from it are nothing short of wonderful.
So if you're wondering where my new found creativity and lust for my artwork has come from, it's been an inside job, a very laborious job indeed but one I have enjoyed immensely with the greatest of support and will continue to work at daily.
I'd love to give you something to help you in remembering you. Click on the link below to download the pdf attachment of the below poster.
I've been on such a crazy needle felting burst of late my entire living room looks as though a rainbow coloured sheep exploded. The hilarious thing is our daughter is enjoying crafting at the moment too and she has taken up residence at the dining table with her weaving as well as her needle felting on the couch lol. There is now no longer anywhere safe to sit and watch tv or eat a meal hahaha.
Eating at our dining table or sitting on our lounge is like playing some sort of bizarre board game, in which one has to slide items into various positions to fit successfully.
I've found I'm not one to put everything away tidy when the day is is upon us as I do lose my creative mojo and can't be bothered pulling it all back out to continue. This has caused me to end up with a serious amount of half finished projects over the years.
I know I'm not the only one to do this, I've spoken with several creative friends and they assure me through photographic evidence that their homes are creatively decorated in the same way hehehe.
We've only been here at our new property for a few months and its the first house I've had without a dedicated art/creative area. I'm ok with it for now, I know my time is coming and when we start renovating, there WILL be an art room with my name on it lol.
We're just at that stage of ok so what are we going to do with this butt ugly 80's brown brick house we purchased. I'm not totally bagging out the 80's, there was some pretty groovy stuff come from that era, but as far as housing in Australia..... lets just say it's was very conservative, which in my case is just not something I deal well with lol.
We've always built or purchased homes full of character, people that know me know I don't do boring, I like my house to be an inviting home with it's own personality, to feel cosy and welcoming, but in this case we totally loved the energy of the property and it's location is perfectly situated between the city, the mountains and the ocean, so that kind of won over the ugly lol.
The guy we bought it off was pretty much a hippy bushy if you know what I mean, everywhere you turn there are different fruit trees and gardens, he has planted over 50 different varieties of Bamboo!! It's incredible walking through the maze of bamboo trees scattered all over the property.
There's also an insanely large Jacaranda tree that towers over all the other trees, I can't even get it in a full photo, it's massive. Living in North Queensland we never had the delight of these vibrant lavender flower bombs. It's stunning and mesmerising when in flower. So I will happily just wander off now and continue creating a crazy mess throughout the living areas and enjoying our beautiful property, whilst flooding my boards on Pinterest with renovating ideas. hahaha
Love and Blessings, Jules xx
Hi and welcome to my first blog post on my Julie Turner Art page. I was never too keen on linking a blog to this site as I thought I'd never get round to adding regular posts, but it struck me today finally (I know right hahahaha) that I'm not actually a regular human, (yes I know many of you have known that about me for years, but a lot of people actually think I have my shit together and am totally OCD) bahaha funny I know, I just don't seem to fit in and feel comfortable around regular normal folk, maybe it's because I'm a massive introvert, maybe I'm just a frightened little fairy sent here to consume as much chocolate as I possibly can before I explode..... who knows, I sure as hell don't....
I remember my first boss asking me what I wanted to be (as in career in the company) I said I just want to be a mum, lol don't think he took my response that well cause he never promoted me and just kept working my arse off me until I was able to escape to a prettier job in another department and left his hahaha.
Being a mum and making art is all I've ever wanted to do, so I'm on track with the mum thing, our daughter is now 10, healthy and living life full of joy so I guess I'm getting that part right so I just have to commit a bit more to my art.
I love making art, I would do it 24 hours a day if I could but this lifetime I've also be blessed as a stubborn Taurean with a solid old school "work hard and play after the works done" attitude so I completely totally and utterly suck at just making time to sit and create instead of finding other chores that always seem to need to be done first. So as I head toward my 40th year I think it's about time to shift this stupid dumb arse mentality which is getting me no friggin enjoyment at all! I mean it's not like my dishes are gunna dissolve into thin air if I don't wash them straight away, same as the washing the worst that's gunna happen is the baskets will just fill up.... a lot lol
For years I've wanted to create an art journal but again the crazy little mofo's jumping round in my head kept telling me, that was just a waste of time, I'm better off making stuff that is sellable that way I can justify spending money on my art supplies, so unless I created something perfectly completely ready to sell I just didn't start a project so along the way I've actually gone YEARS without creating stuff for fear of wasting or it not being good enough, my goodness gracious me it's been a journey!!
I don't know if it's a common artisty creative thing but I suffer from anxiety and depression and find it is way worse when I'm having a dry spell from creating, it's almost like my heart dries up and life is dull and such a monumental pain in the arse. When I'm in a better place I always manage to look back and understand that I'm actually being the pain in the arse to myself not allowing myself to create.
So last week after yet another couple of months hidden away from the world in my sad little depressed funk I pulled out a beautiful little art journal I had purchased months ago and I started painting and drawing in it! Of course the timing was completely ridiculous as I should of been cooking dinner but a girl's gotta start somewhere!!
And the crazy thing was I completed it, I think it was smart I purchased the 4x6 inch size book, I think I'd still be in my fugly funk if I'd started and not finished.And then yesterday after deciding I'm ok with sitting amongst a less than perfect home I sat down with my dear sweet mermaid friend as our girls played, she attached hair to her mermaid doll she's in the midst of creating and I painted and drew a bit more, this time I tricked myself and went with a bigger 9x12 inch page and completed it!! Yes I consumed peanut M & M's and wine whilst creating but I felt great, I came back to life.
So what's a girl to do when she's on a roll like that... I started another one today LMAO, I am so friggin funny!!! I'm starting to be one of those all or nothing sort of people, but today as I arked up the Celtic music channel on Pandora, my poor brother in law didn't know what to think, he asked if I was playing it for the Leprechauns, I didn't want to freak him out and tell him they preferred to be called elementals. ;) (I've only recently switched back to Pandora, not feeling the love for iTunes radio anymore, a lot more scope with Pandora especially when I want to play music to my fellow elementals out beneath the tropical trees surrounding our home) and instead of M & M's and wine I ate apricots and drank water and my Mango Kombucha, so that's a bit more balanced... So I'm gunna continue on with my whimsical mushrooms. Have a magical day where ever you may be.
Love, Light, Blessings and big squishy hugs, Jules xx