Hi and welcome to my first blog post on my Julie Turner Art page. I was never too keen on linking a blog to this site as I thought I'd never get round to adding regular posts, but it struck me today finally (I know right hahahaha) that I'm not actually a regular human, (yes I know many of you have known that about me for years, but a lot of people actually think I have my shit together and am totally OCD) bahaha funny I know, I just don't seem to fit in and feel comfortable around regular normal folk, maybe it's because I'm a massive introvert, maybe I'm just a frightened little fairy sent here to consume as much chocolate as I possibly can before I explode..... who knows, I sure as hell don't....
I remember my first boss asking me what I wanted to be (as in career in the company) I said I just want to be a mum, lol don't think he took my response that well cause he never promoted me and just kept working my arse off me until I was able to escape to a prettier job in another department and left his hahaha.
Being a mum and making art is all I've ever wanted to do, so I'm on track with the mum thing, our daughter is now 10, healthy and living life full of joy so I guess I'm getting that part right so I just have to commit a bit more to my art.
I love making art, I would do it 24 hours a day if I could but this lifetime I've also be blessed as a stubborn Taurean with a solid old school "work hard and play after the works done" attitude so I completely totally and utterly suck at just making time to sit and create instead of finding other chores that always seem to need to be done first. So as I head toward my 40th year I think it's about time to shift this stupid dumb arse mentality which is getting me no friggin enjoyment at all! I mean it's not like my dishes are gunna dissolve into thin air if I don't wash them straight away, same as the washing the worst that's gunna happen is the baskets will just fill up.... a lot lol
For years I've wanted to create an art journal but again the crazy little mofo's jumping round in my head kept telling me, that was just a waste of time, I'm better off making stuff that is sellable that way I can justify spending money on my art supplies, so unless I created something perfectly completely ready to sell I just didn't start a project so along the way I've actually gone YEARS without creating stuff for fear of wasting or it not being good enough, my goodness gracious me it's been a journey!!
I don't know if it's a common artisty creative thing but I suffer from anxiety and depression and find it is way worse when I'm having a dry spell from creating, it's almost like my heart dries up and life is dull and such a monumental pain in the arse. When I'm in a better place I always manage to look back and understand that I'm actually being the pain in the arse to myself not allowing myself to create.
So last week after yet another couple of months hidden away from the world in my sad little depressed funk I pulled out a beautiful little art journal I had purchased months ago and I started painting and drawing in it! Of course the timing was completely ridiculous as I should of been cooking dinner but a girl's gotta start somewhere!!
And the crazy thing was I completed it, I think it was smart I purchased the 4x6 inch size book, I think I'd still be in my fugly funk if I'd started and not finished.And then yesterday after deciding I'm ok with sitting amongst a less than perfect home I sat down with my dear sweet mermaid friend as our girls played, she attached hair to her mermaid doll she's in the midst of creating and I painted and drew a bit more, this time I tricked myself and went with a bigger 9x12 inch page and completed it!! Yes I consumed peanut M & M's and wine whilst creating but I felt great, I came back to life.
So what's a girl to do when she's on a roll like that... I started another one today LMAO, I am so friggin funny!!! I'm starting to be one of those all or nothing sort of people, but today as I arked up the Celtic music channel on Pandora, my poor brother in law didn't know what to think, he asked if I was playing it for the Leprechauns, I didn't want to freak him out and tell him they preferred to be called elementals. ;) (I've only recently switched back to Pandora, not feeling the love for iTunes radio anymore, a lot more scope with Pandora especially when I want to play music to my fellow elementals out beneath the tropical trees surrounding our home) and instead of M & M's and wine I ate apricots and drank water and my Mango Kombucha, so that's a bit more balanced... So I'm gunna continue on with my whimsical mushrooms. Have a magical day where ever you may be.
Love, Light, Blessings and big squishy hugs, Jules xx